is it downtime week or what
pms...i got it real bad
wednesday i was practically crying my heart out
after work couldnt take it
resting my confidences on my faraway darling in Tekong on the phone
unable to express it to anyone else...not my parents
no way hozay!
they wdnt understand
nor wd they be able to comfort and encourage me the way Hazril did
owe alot to him
and thanks to the Almighty for bringing him to me

thursday i had my period
really couldnt stop myself from weeping
i was in a shitty pathetic state
work was so stressing me out in this fragile female state i was in
not one song in my Zen failed in making me weep in the bus and train to work
strangely enough though most of them being from the punk rock genre
not like they're all Malay Jiwangs or Alicia Keys and Mariah Carey R&Bs
i dunno...even Fort Minor and The B.E.P didnt work
i was that petrified in fear of life that day
i just wanted to decompose pathetically as i was feeling
lucky the day ended well and my morale boosted up fifty percent
i spoke to Hazril in a much more cheery manner that night during our compulsory phonecals
compared to the sobbing one the night before

and by Friday it was all TGIF
my baby's last day at Tekong
but he booked out late this week
so we wont be seeing each other today
which is Saturday already
anyway i'm off work
so there's like no reason for me to wander out wif him
considering how strict and particular my mom is about my whereabouts
especially on Family Days like this...more on Sundays
sigh

today...Saturday...
it rained all day
after lunch i napped the whole afternoon away
accompanied tiny fractions of the day with my recently bought copy of
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
always enjoyable as long as its Harry Potter
yea im a freak...who doesnt noe that?
tonight Haz is going to JB wif Lee
old poly mate and recent best buddy of my baby sinz after his last break up
their weekly meeting...guys' stuff
i respect Lee for his maturity and also
i trust him for taking my baby safely home in whatever bike he rides in
so that i'll be able to hold im in my arms again and again and again
i love my dear too much i worry like a mum for him sometimes

tmr morning i'll be having my first Tajwid class
its a Quran reading course i've been wanting to take up for so long
and now i've got it thanks to my mommy...
its just that i havent had a proper teacher to teach me to read the Quran the more correct way
before its been mom and dad, well occasionally, all the way ever since i learned how to read
ive always wanted to read it with much more deeper knowledge
especially since i've Khatam-ed (completed reading all 30 chapters...the "-ed" is a past tense indication)
well nothing to boast about
i only Khatam the Quran once in my whole life...haha

anyway there's something wrong wif my Zen
the lcd...an unsightly vertical line appeared since like 2 days ago
:(

well ok lah...my baby wanted me to sleep early tonight
so i'll be off now